I’m actually feeling kinda moody today. I suppose I did it to myself, taking the time to Google ex-girlfriends on the internet, but honestly, I used to do a pretty good job in choosing them. So what went wrong? What did I do in the last few years that made me decide to take a failed path. Maybe I bought a lie. Maybe I let myself believe that this was all I could obtain. Maybe I thought I deserved what I got, or didn’t deserve better. Honestly, I don’t know.
Maybe a little instruction would have helped. Maybe I should have grown up a little faster (that would have helped actually). Either way, maybe isn’t sufficient. I know D’wayn and I wouldn’t have worked… we didn’t mesh well. But what about Nikki? Heck, our breakup was more of a mistake than anything else. I just saw it as a way out at that opportunity. Maybe I thought I was an anchor to her, I don’t know. But I didn’t stick to the path, and it’s what brought me where I am now