I’ll be genuine with you. I’m having something of a crisis of faith. Not that my ability to believe in God is in jeapordy or anything (yet), but I honestly feel that there is very little true worship of God going on anywhere. I’m almost to the “what’s the point” phase. I mean, I go to church, and hear the same thing I hear on the christian radio stations, and it’s the same thing that I hear people talk about in general christian circles. It’s a bunch of repeating of the same old, same old. Almost like “indoctrination” if you know what I mean.
Coming to a life in Christ, I thought I was supposed to be getting what he described as “life, and life more abundantly”, but I see a bunch of dead people talking about how good he is. I’m almost terrified of becoming like one of them. I’m scared that I’ll become so embittered that when I see a person on fire for God, I’ll take a concious effort to douse that fire as much as possible, in order to make my lack of zeal feel less conspicuous. What happened to the life?